Insecurities making me CRAZY!

My parents divorced when I was six. Joe was four and Mike was only two. 

To make a long story short, my Dad went to his high school reunion while my Mom opted to stay with us three kids and my Grandparents. My Dad's parents. Apparently, my Dad decided that one of his former classmates was a better fit for him in his life. After talking on the phone and seeing each other without us knowing, he decided to leave my mom for this other woman and become my step-mom. Much like Cinderella's version of a step-mom to be exact. 

Twenty years later and I still can't wrap my head around it or figure out why he did the things he did. While my Dad and I have had our (more than) fair share of ups and downs, I think we are finally in a pretty good place. I don't know why this all happened and probably never will. I do know that I am very thankful that my Step-Dad was able to come into my life though. I definitely plan to write more about him later, but I want to get back to the main point of this post....

My insecurities. 

In less than two weeks my husband will be having his 10 year high school reunion. Besides the obvious feelings of "oh man we are getting old" I can't help but dread that weekend because of past experiences. It doesn't help when I know a lot of the women in his class and their behavior, one in particular. 

I definitely have my list of very legitimate reasons to not be very fond of this girl and it doesn't help that she is the spitting image of my step-mom and has the exact same personality. I know looking and acting like my step-mom doesn't mean I should automatically hate her but....When she asks her friends to tell my husband she is unhappy in her marriage and then have them ask if Seth is happy in his....EXCUSE ME???!!!! That's when my crazy comes out. 

Side note: Seth and I dated all through high-school so I have had a long track record with this girl. 

Under normal circumstances I'm not a crazy, possessive, don't trust my husband kind of wife. Actually, I trust my husband more than anyone in the world. I just can't help but feel insecure when going into this type of situation. Seth obviously knows of my discomfort when we are around this girl and continually reassures me that he loves me and that we will grow old and wrinkly together. And for that I love him even more. 

Since the reunion happens to coincide with my hometown's carnival and I refuse to miss it because of someone stupid, I will just have to take Erin from Two Thirds Hazel's advice and continue to "Hide the Crazy". Like she said, "GIRLS DON'T GO CRAZY FOR NO APPARENT REASON." There's usually someone on the other end making them go crazy and in my case it happens to be a wanna-be-husband stealing girl.  

I'll keep ya posted.